Hello Sweet Cheer: Fear is of the enemy

1.06.2012

Fear is of the enemy

Well, this morning I got my wisdom teeth taken out. To be completely honest I was VERY nervous to have the surgery done. You probably think it’s silly because a lot of people have it done & it’s a standard procedure. For some reason though, I was afraid to have it done. I had never gone under anesthesia before this morning so that was a huge fear of mine. I’ve had many IV’s & had my blood drawn a lot but going under was a really scary thought! Anyway, I had myself so scared that last night while eating dinner with my family the subject was brought up & I had to leave the room to let the tears out.
Pathetic, I know.
So I gathered myself together enough to go back downstairs & spend the evening with my family. We watched TV & slowly one by one people went to bed. I ended up staying down stairs for a while watching shows with my sister, Rachel. I was trying to keep my mind off the surgery. Around 11pm I had a snack since I was going to have to start fasting at midnight. At 11:30pm I headed upstairs to my room & started to realize how afraid I still was. I went to scripture & found some really encouraging verses that I’d like to share!
All of Psalm 23 was incredibly comforting to me. I memorized this passage about a year ago & it never ceases to amaze me.
“The Lord is my shepherd; I shall not be in want. He makes me lie down in green pastures. He leads me beside still waters. He restores my soul. He leads me in paths of righteousness for his name’s sake. Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me. You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies; you anoint my head with oil; my cup overflows. Surely goodness and love will follow me all the days of my life, and I shall dwell in the house of the Lord forever.” Psalm 23:1-6
“The LORD is with me; I will not be afraid. What can man do to me?” Psalm 118:6
“The LORD is my light and my salvation– whom shall I fear? The LORD is the stronghold of my life– of whom shall I be afraid?” Psalm 27:1
“Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the LORD your God goes with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you.” Deuteronomy 31:6
(Context: This last verse is when Moses is telling the people of Israel that Joshua will take over to lead them across the Jordan. He is telling them that the Lord will destroy the other nations for them to take possession of them, and proceeds to tell them not to fear.)
As I was reading through these verses I began to feel an incredible calmness. I was falling asleep last night & continually prayed against fear & asked that the Lord’s presence would be with me. I prayed for the hands of the doctors & nurses involved. I prayed that when I woke up in the morning I would feel calmness & comfort about the surgery.
As you probably expected, when I opened my eyes this morning I knew the Lord was with me. He had given me an incredible peace about the situation & although I still wasn’t excited about the surgery I know he was protecting me & taking away my fear.
I think the take away from this for me is two things. 
First, the Lord is FAITHFUL. He is constantly with me & He answers prayer. God doesn’t just leave us hanging. For me, that was incredible to experience. I’ve experienced the Lord’s faithfulness many times before, but each time is different & today was awesome.
Second, I have the Creator of the universe on my side, why should I fear!? I was afraid of something that God was already going to protect me through. As much as people told me I would be fine, I was still afraid. I think I was able to experience the amazing truth that God has me in His hands. Always. Daily.
I am so thankful for what the Lord taught me through this surgery. I’m also thankful for the people who were praying for me & checking up on me. I have some incredible friends & couldn’t be more thankful for their love & care for me. Mostly, I’m thankful for my parents. I’m thankful that I have a mom & dad who love me so much & are involved in my life. I’m so thankful to my mom for being my nurse all day long. She has been incredible & is a huge comfort to me. I’m thankful to my dad for being my rock & reassuring me that I would be fine all day yesterday.
Needless to say, I am INCREDIBLY blessed.
If you’ve gotten through this entire post, (sorry for such length) here are some funny pictures of me recovering. My thought is, if I’m gonna be in pain I might as well be able to laugh at myself :)



This is me right after I got home!
 
And here’s a picture at about 7pm!
As you can see my recovery seems to be going pretty well so far! Side note; I was really surprised how my smile turned out, it felt pretty normal to me but… haha
(P.S. My shirt says “SWARM Texas Tech Football” not “WARM” haha)
Hopefully this post is encouraging to you. My prayer is that through this blog & posting about the things the Lord is teaching me, you would learn something as well. If not learn something, I hope you are at least encouraged by my experiences. Thanks for reading!
Peace & blessings!
UPDATE:
Today is the 7th, the day after my surgery and here are the latest pictures! I’m still swollen but feeling pretty good!
Chipmunk!
:)

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