Hello Sweet Cheer: June 2015

6.23.2015

That Summer Slump + A Bucket List Update

Happppy Tuesday, friends!

     Today I have two things on my mind. I'll start with the fun part! I can officially cross one more item off my bucket list. My sweet sister, Callie, is pregnant with my first NEPHEW! I am elated and have been working on baby shower ideas for months now! I can't wait to meet this Little Man and be the coolest Auntie Mere he ever did know ;) He will arrive in early December...Christmas will have a whole new element in our family this year!

Here are some things I'm thinking about getting for Baby Payne!

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My sister will probably hate this onesie and think it's so lame but I'll make it anyway because it's funny and cute!

These outfits are from Target (!!!) and who isn't obsessed, am I right?!


        
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I cannot wait to meet the little guy and hold him in my arms! I already love him so much.


Onto the next topic...

     Today (and just lately) I've been feeling like I'm in a summer slump. My body doesn't feel awesome because it's hot outside. I'm trying really hard to drink more water but my soul just loves coke way too much! Finances are always a headache. And my heart feels...low. I don't know exactly how to describe it but I just feel weak and limp at times. The summer brings hustle and bustle in our culture...and a lot of times it brings "taking a break" from more than just school and normal work schedules. For me sometimes it means I take a break from fervent pursuit of Jesus. It means I take a break from fighting sin actively. It means I take a break from investing in others and pointing them to the Gospel. It means I take a break from daily and constantly preaching the Gospel to myself. "Taking a break" is not cool in any of those areas! 

     And when a break is taken in those areas....and you have another human to answer to about it (spoiler alert: in my case that other human is my husband) things don't go well. For others it might be answering to your accountability group, sometimes called fights clubs or LTGs. Now don't get me wrong, whether I have anyone to answer to or not, the reality is that I'm talking about eternal things here. I'm talking about my relationship with Jesus which must be nourished and pursued no matter where I'm at in my life. For me specifically, being married changes the game a bit. Now I'm responsible to keep my husband informed about my heart and where it's at. And when it's low, things can be really hard. Thankfully I am married to a man who is patient with me, who isn't afraid to point out my flaws and point me back to the cross!

     The conclusion that I really want to make here is that while I might be taking a break, my Savior never will! He has wooed me into his loving grace and redemption. And that is something that won't change. The Lord is constantly drawing me back to himself and for that I am so thankful. He paid the price so that I might be in communion with him and He would get the glory! 

     So today I'm just sort of venting. I'm praying that Jesus would renew in me a hunger and thirst for Him and for scripture. I'm praying for others as well, who may be feeling the same way this summer. Praying that the Lord would reignite a passion in their hearts to know Jesus and make Him known!

xoxo | meredith holguin

Can you relate? Tell me all about it in the comments below!


6.18.2015

Wedding Week | Rehearsal

Hello lovelies!!

     Back with another wedding recap today! The night before our wedding was so much fun! Dare I say, more fun than the wedding? No, just much less stressful! Other than my minor emotional breakdown - more on that later! ;)

I have little to no pictures of the rehearsal and rehearsal dinner because....well I forgot to take any. Haha, so unlike me but it was a crazy time! But I'll share the ones my parents took!

     We got to our venue to rehearse at 5:30pm if I remember correctly? My sister Rachel, (who was a bridesmaid) and her husband Andy, (who was an usher) still hadn't arrived at the wonderful Lubbock airport. They were delayed and had to switch flights to make it and they lost their luggage at some point. It was major. Anyway, they walked into the venue with their clothes on hangers just as we were beginning to rehearse! Thank goodness they still made it! 

Our run through was great, honestly it went perfectly. I loved getting to stand up there with my love and anticipate standing there on our actual wedding day!!




      Our rehearsal dinner was held at Ruby Tequila's in a really cute event room. We didn't really do any decorations since the restaurant already has a Mexican theme. We had margaritas and tacos and just hung out! Half way through dinner I started bawling. I don't even know why really...I think I was just overwhelmed with everything! But Ryan and I went outside to get some fresh air and I calmed down!

     Ryan and I talked a little bit, gave gifts to our bridal party and my dad talked some. It was such a fun time to relax, hang out with family and friends, and prepare for the next day! 

And here are the TWO pictures we took at dinner.



     After dinner we had so much fun! A ton of our family plus the entire bridal party came to the hotel where everyone was staying and we hung out in our suite! We watched Jimmy Fallon, had cocktails and played Heads Up! It was such a blast! 

The night before the wedding was just wonderful. Come back later for the big day!

xoxo | meredith holguin

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6.06.2015

Perfect Love

Tonight I'm pouring my heart out.

     Lately I've been learning a lot. I've learned about my husband, about myself as a wife, and about Jesus. I am always in progress, but tonight I'm ready to share my thoughts and experiences in hopes of bringing glory to my King.

     Ryan and I have been married almost five months, together sixteen months and we've known each other for twenty months! Not even two years ago we didn't know each other existed! That's so crazy to think about. In our five months of marriage we have learned a ton! We have learned more about conflict/resolution, compromise, supporting one another, etc. More than any of that though, I have learned more and more and more as each day passes about who my husband is. I'm sure I learn new things about him every other day!

     Because we're married, it's so easy for me to feel like he should know exactly what I want or need from him. I even expect him to just KNOW things that I'm thinking. I get upset when he doesn't immediately realize that I need him to be there for me emotionally. I get frustrated with him when he doesn't read my mind. And to be honest, at times I know I'm treating my husband like a robot who is here solely for the purpose of making me happy, satisfying my every need and desire, and leading me just perfectly. And I want that perfect love from him. Ryan has all of these expectations for me as his wife in the same way I have them for him as my husband. We both struggle to live out the fact that we are not perfect people and we do not have a perfect marriage. I struggle greatly with identity - I always have. I am constantly having to remind myself that while being a wife is a privilege and a good thing, that role does not define me. And when I fail as a wife it is not the end of the world because I am sinner and my identity is found in my Savior! What a beautiful truth that is.


     My point in saying all of this is that I have greatly missed what Jesus desires for me. I have looked to my husband to fulfill the most extravagant, authentic, PERFECT love that my heart longs for. And that Jesus wants to fulfill. And that only Jesus can fulfill. So tonight I challenge you to evaluate your heart a little bit. Where are you placing your hope? Do you have lofty expectations that no flawed human can meet?

Are you looking to the One who created you to love you perfectly?

     One tool that I use to evaluate my heart is to think of everything that has given me joy that day. If my joy is coming from only other things and people and not my Creator, I know that I am putting my hope in all those things as well. I was inspired to write about this topic and the way I twisted the source from which I expect that perfect love, from the language in 1 John 4:18.

Happy Saturday!

xoxo | meredith holguin
   

6.05.2015

Wedding Week | Bridesmaids Brunch

Happy Weekend! <3

     It's Friday, which means I get to spend two days straight hanging with my boo thang. Fridays always get me excited because of that! I got a few Starbucks gift cards so I'm starting my morning out with an iced caramel macchiato! Love these things and love having iced coffee in the mornings now that it's blazing hot outside.


     Alright, to the point here... Another installment of the Wedding Week series! Today I'm talking about my Bridesmaids Brunch. My sweet aunts (my mom's two sisters) threw it for me. They did my older sister's brunches as well when they got married a few years ago. So I was definitely excited about what they had planned for us! We held the brunch at my favorite breakfast spot in Lubbock - Pancake House! It was sweet because Ryan and I had been having breakfast there every Saturday morning since before we were engaged. It's just a really cute, local place with really yummy food and they even serve french vanilla creamer (that's a must in my mind)! My Auntie Lynne reserved a corner of the restaurant and they set up a few little decorations, which were adorable!



They had a fun little activity for us and then shared some bible verses about marriage. It was such a sweet time with my family and friends. Here are some more pictures!



My precious mother-in-law!

My momma!

With my two wonderful hostesses! Auntie Lynne on the left an Auntie Anne on the right! <3

     My brunch was so much fun! It was sweet to spend that time with the ladies just before the big day! I love my aunts and I am so thankful they did this for me! I'll be back this weekend with an update on my week! <3

xoxo | meredith holguin

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